The Comeback Year

If you haven't already, you need to head over and check out the wonderful blog at www.strutyourstroller.com. I came across this blog in some shares on Facebook and I must say that she is awesome to read. In the latest post the lovely Rachelle talks about making a change when you are "older". Now look. I'm 30 too and I don't consider myself old, well, until I'm out in the college town I live in and see some 19 year old kid and want to punch them in the face...THEN I'm old. But anyway.

 

I'm on the same road she is on. I did the college thing when I was out of HS and I was never happy and I bounced around from career to career and it wasn't until I was 29 that I decided what I wanted to do 'when I grew up'.

 

Now, on to the meat of this post.

 

I waited for a few days before I decided to talk about my new year's resolution. Mostly because these resolutions usually only last for a month or so and then make us all into liars.

 

But this year is different. This year is going to be my year. This is going to be my comeback year.

 

Hell yes!

 

I feel like I am coming to the game in the 7th inning stretch. All those formative years when I should have been going out with friends and dating and finding myself I spent in a bad relationship. I spend under some kind of lock and key and I missed out on all of those things. So when the relationship ended when I was like 24, I finally got to start having the kind of life that a 19 year old should have. I went to clubs, I stayed out at a friend's house and drank, dare I say it, I even smoked some pot. But after a few years I got over that too and I started feeling the crunch to do more and be more. When I went back to school at 29 with a degree course finally plotted out I really started to feel, well, unfulfilled.

 

When I was 25 I was married and ready to have kids. But the older I've gotten the more I have realized why some people don't have kids. I'm not saying that I never will, but until I get to a place in my life where I can financially care for a child I will not have one that I know I have to use government assistance to care for. This is another topic all together so I will let that be for now.

 

The last year I have been in a constant feeling of unrest. In a lot of ways. I'm happy that I'm working so hard to get a career, one that I feel happy with. I'm happy with the work that I am doing now. But a lot of things I just feel like are lacking, they are not living up to what I always thought I wanted to what I expected from myself. I know where I have always kind of wanted to end up and the road I am on just won't lead me there.

 

I have fallen quite in love with the lyrics from the song "Comeback" that Redlight King performs. I decided that this year will be the year for my comeback!

 

I'm not going on a diet, no. That's too much pressure and it immediately screams "EAT STUFF YOU HATE!!" What I am doing is eating more foods that are good for my blood type, cutting out gluten as much as I can because those foods make me feel like garbage and I'm tired of feeling like garbage. I want to start exercising more because that made me feel much better. It's not so much about losing weight as it is about feeling better and feeling better about myself.

 

Oh, I have other goals too but I will save them for a different time I suppose. My number one goal is to be healthier and more fit. I want to be the person I see myself as in my mind instead of the person I see myself as in my mirror. I'll tell you one thing, what I will not do is allow anyone to sway me or to look at me with that "I've heard this before" look. I know that I may have to make better (and perhaps more expensive food choices). But this is one reason that I've taken on a second job.

 

I refuse to depend on what someone else is doing to try and fulfil what I want from my own life. I gotta keep moving on and if they choose to follow they may, and if they don't well that is up to them. But I have to live for ME. I have to do what makes ME feel like I have made something of myself. I want to get out of this abyss that I have been in since that bad relationship and feel like I am worth something again.

 

I have these ideas in my head of things that I want to do and even though I may never do them, I will do all that I can to try and get there.

 

This will be my comeback year. I hope to share this comeback with all of you. I hope that if you read this you may share your comeback too. Let this be YOUR comeback year. Let this be the year that you say "Go on. Tell me that you've heard it before, that I've failed so many times in the past, that I can't or I won't go ahead and believe that I won't make it because it will just make it so much sweeter when I do." Tell your haters and the disbelievers to eff-off and make a COMEBACK this year.

 

Do it for YOU.

 

This will be my year. My comeback.

 

Make it yours too.